John and I have decided not to induce labor early. We spoke with John's priest, who said it would not be abortion. Then we spoke with a pastor from my parent's church and he said that no matter what you called it, it's still taking a life. I think John and I both agreed on that point. It's ending a life. Yes, she's going to die, but aren't we all? None of us knows the day or the hour. I have a profound respect for all life and I refuse to kill even a bug (although a few persistent Alaskan mosquitoes have been swatted lately!). I believe that our daughter should get to live as long as she can! For now, she's healthy and doing all the normal things babies her age do (other than swallowing!). I mean, how much neurological function do most 17-week-old fetuses have, anyway? Not a whole heck of a lot! So, until I start getting sick (a real possibility) we will do everything in our power to keep her healthy and alive!
I'm not one of those hero moms who never would have ever considered ending the pregnancy early. As I mentioned before, it was definitely on the table. I asked every member of my immediate (incredibly pro-life) family how they felt and, with the exception of one brother, agreed that it would not be wrong. I was actually shocked at how strongly I wanted to end the pregnancy considering my feelings about life. And then my friend Jenine sent me this video:
John and I watched it and I realized that I very much wanted to spend time with Denali while she's alive. She may not make it through birth, but if there's a possibility, I want to give her every chance to be held by her family and cuddled and loved! She deserves that chance!
So, that's the plan for now!
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